i just made up a new illness, more precisely a mind sickness to describe and define my current state of being. interesting that i was taught that doctors have identified and defined a lot of illness and given it various names and abbrevations-because those made-up names become too long in Latin language, and i have to use then to be understood. no, i don't have to. furthermore i also can create a new phrase to define something, even if it has been defined by others with different words. it's not about the name of the state but the actual status and accumulated consequence of it. so i name however i want it to.
First it seemed like the only way to finish something. Then i told myself it's good that i effectively achieving something, later again i bloated my ego with it, calling myself precise and tedious.