Day 237: harming ME

hurting myself, i'm used to that.
i started to do it because i learned it when i was a kid. i saw that my parents when they got angry started wrecking things and hurting themselves and each other when they fought so i interpreted this as normal, although i didn't like when they fought, after a while i had to accept it. i saw how they have built a giant wall against one another and the air were mostly cold and silent when they were in the same room.


Day 236: NO MORE

As i was strangling today throught my night dreaming about flying in an airplane, and doing what i did for more than a 1000 hours (in a game) i realized something that i have been keeping hidden from myself for long.